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| Doubt
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Let
us speak together about doubt. I tell you when attending satsang,
not to bring doubt along with you. I receive many letters describing
beautiful experiences, but they all end with: "Am I on the right
path?" Also the people who leave here begin to experience doubts.
It
is like someone going to dig rubies in the river in Bihar State, where
rubies are found. A man finds a ruby on the sand at the riverside
but he throws it away. He doubts his luck, "How can I find it
so easily?" he says, so he throws it back in the river. "People
around me are digging for 150 feet and they still have not found anything,
so I will throw it away." He doubts, "Is it a ruby or a
piece of glass?"
Doubt
is the only thing that is troublesome. The books of knowledge give
you the highest teaching directly, only doubt stands between you and
that teaching. Since time immemorial they have been passing this ancient
teaching from chest to chest that "You are That." The teaching
was coming directly, only doubt exists between you and That. Secondly
it is taught that "I am Brahman." and thirdly "All
this what I see, feel, hear, touch and taste is all myself."
But doubt is in the way so that we don't believe.
It
is true of all the teachings: if we listen without doubt one word
is quite enough. When you come to satsang do not entertain doubt by
questioning, "Is it going to happen to me?" Do not use the
intellect as a test stone, because it will not give you the correct
indication of gold. Throw it away. But many are not ready to do that
so they will not get the point. They will take this teaching and continue
to suffer endlessly, for immeasurable time. Your suffering will not
end unless you remove this doubt from within you.
Somehow,
since my childhood I have not carried any doubt. I didn't have doubt,
I had never heard of doubt, because my first teacher was my own mother.
Whatever she told me instantly happened to me. I was a child and I
never knew or heard about doubt. I got it instantly. She used to tell
me stories and they manifested in front of me instantly because I
had no doubt whether this reality or not. Usually when you hear a
story you entertain doubts. I tell you stories here as the mothers
tell stories to their children, but they are not really stories. This
is truth in an essence, in simple words, spoken in story form.
I
will tell you a story about doubt which I have heard from my mother
when I was six or seven years old. In ancient times people used to
go to satsang early in the morning, at four in the morning, before
going to their business or office. In my own town in Pakistan there
was a bank manager. He used to conduct satsang in his own house from
four to five. About twenty people used to gather and he used to speak
on a book called Vichar Sagar, I remember. It's a very ancient book
of direct teachings from Vedanta, written by a Punjabi saddhu called
Nichildas. I used to attend that morning meeting when I was very small,
maybe seven or eight. This was happening every morning and evening.
There used to be gatherings in my own town, vedanta teaching, devotional
teaching, yoga teaching and kundalini yoga. All these different teachings
were there. There were also discourses in the evening. This was only
70 or 80 years ago. People used to take their food and sit near their
lane to attend the Satsang till 10:30 or 11:00 and then come back
home. Morning and evening satsang were a must for everybody. He may
be an office boy, he may be a business man, he may even be a worker.
Even people who were driving hand carts used to attend.
About
one bandit – robber - this was also a profession. Some go for satsang
and some go for their game in the night, so he goes. So one day he
was passing, he just heard someone speaking about… about a young boy
having a diamond padded cap on his head and a garland of celestial
gems around his neck and that's all he heard; and he stopped. He sat
down near the gathering and listened. So at about 10:30 this satsang
was over and the priest has collected whatsoever money was given to
him after. After satsang some money's left for the priest and some
gift also; so he collected and put them in a bag. And everyone is
leaving for his house and he's leaving for his house - his family
is waiting. This is his profession, to recite stories in the evenings.
And
he's going his way and this man [the bandit] just went to him… asked
him, “Give me the address of this boy you spoke about – having the
diamond imbedded cap and the garland of gems around his neck… a garland.
Give me this address.” Now this Brahmin priest, he's reading a story.
This man tells him, "Give me the address of this boy." He
says, "You know that path going to the river Yamuna, that side.
At that time he goes for bath every morning at four o'clock.
You go there and you will see him."
"Okay, let's find. But I cannot… I cannot recognize him.
I've not seen him. You come with me." So he said, “My family
is waiting for me and later on your family, you know.”
Then he put the pistol on the chest and he gave his introduction
now: "I do not know him. You come with me and you simply tell
me this man, that's all, and then you go. But two cannot hide behind
one tree. You stay in that tree and I in this tree. You simply point
out this is the boy and then that's all. Then I will come." And
then he tied him with the rope so that he doesn't run away.
Time
is now 11 p.m. He [robber] has tied him [priest]. He's hiding and
now the time is passing - 11 to 4. This man spoke like this is a story,
and this man says, “He didn't take it as story; he took it's a fact.”
And this priest is counting every minute of his death, and this robber
is counting every minute of his luck, “I will have this diamond. I'll
be very rich, you see. I'll be very rich.” So he's totally concentrated.
Nothing else… nothing else between him, and his mind is only concentrating
on the diamond and this boy which he described - a young boy wearing
a cap imbedded with diamonds, garland around his neck. Time is passing…
time is passing now. This thought that this boy having diamonds around
his neck. Now the time is now 4 o'clock.
And
now this thought itself has manifested. You can also manifest what
you think; you are not away from your thought. You are a thought itself
- you become what you think. You become what you think instantly.
You… you are thought. You have conviction, “I am the body.” so you
are. You listen every day, “You are existence, consciousness, bliss.”
This is also a thought, nothing else. Because conviction of the body
is stronger than this conviction that, “I am consciousness. I am bliss.”
So whatever is the stronger thought so you become. There's no doubt
- you are thought itself.
So
at 4 a.m. this manifested itself. The boy comes in front of him and
gave him the garland and the cap he was wearing himself. “So it's
very nice of you, but wait… don't go away… because I didn't have your
address. There is another partner in this deed and you have something
else that I did not hear. I only heard cap of the diamonds and the
garland but you have something on your arm also. So this I will… this
gift I will give to this priest. You come with me.” So he took this
boy in front of that one. He's
still tied with the rope. He thought, “He's now going to kill me.
He's going to kill me.” Before
reaching him he folded hands, “Sir, I told you a story from the book.
Don't kill me. My wife, my children are waiting for me. Don't kill
me now. I told a story - it was a story only.” Then he says, “No,
no, no. You were right. I'm very thankful to you. Exactly at that
time here is the boy; here is the boy and here are the diamonds. And
I can only take garland and only the cap but here is something on
his arm also, so I will give you this gift. Still he doesn't believe.
He said, “Don't, don't, don't bluff me please. You have to kill now…
kill me now, that's all. Kill me.”
“You don't see?” “No,
no, no, I don't see. I don't see.” Then he says, “You see this… you
see this hand?” With the touch of his hand he saw who this boy was…
who this boy was. And this Brahmin, this priest, now immediately saw,
“I am confronting him.” He untied the priest and this priest prostrated
in front of this bandit and never returned home. And this man - this
is a true story - he
is known as Bandit Saint. He is known as Bandit Saint still.
So
I am just speaking about doubts you see. This doubt is the only thing
that gives you trouble, so without doubt if you have straight away
this teaching as the story has been told to you, you just listen.
Anything if it is even falsely told to you it will materialize. You
simply hear the word; it will manifest.
Let
the teacher tell you, “You are consciousness.” and you simply hear
without doubt – and what's going to happen? You listen from the teacher
that you are existence, you are consciousness, you are eternal, you
are deathless, you are not the body. What does he tell you that is
wrong? But you don't listen to him. What wrong is there? But
you have a conviction, “I am suffering, I am born, I have to die because
I have listened from my parents, I have listened from my priest. So
nothing is going to work.” So it's not good to have any doubt in your
mind when you speak about it, you see. And it is so simple not to
have doubt - it's so simple. So simple and there is no confusion if
you don't entertain doubt that you are what you are. Only this veil
is a doubt you see. So this veil, this doubt has become this manifestation
and this is your own creation, this is your own creation, you see.
And if you don't have this doubt of, “Where is the creation, and who
is the creator?” then instantly you will know who you really were
and are. 3 July, 1992
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